realization

I should NOT wear sleeveless or short sleeve shirts. I should NOT wear a swimsuit or shorts. I should not wear shirts that don't come ALL the way down. These things will not change with the more weight I lose - they will get worse. The loose skin under my arms resembles wings - a few more pounds and I should be able to take flight - where should I go?

I know all of these things, but at the same time, I knew going into the surgery that I would have loose skin. And yes, there are things that can be done (with a lot of $$), but we want to have another child and I won't have any surgeries to fix things until after Austin is born *crosses her fingers*... meanwhile - I have come to the realization that I DON'T CARE! I finally don't have to hide under extra large clothes, or long pants in 90 + degree weather, or a jacket over a short sleeved shirt because I am hiding inside my clothes. I have lost 140 lbs so far and I look better than I have in 14 years - I have more energy, more ambition, more confidence and I intend to wear short sleeve shirts and a swimsuit and shorts.... I doubt I will wear a sleeveless dress though - I mean - usually a formal event, I don't want to take flight during someone's wedding nuptials.

I was able to see a surgery buddy of mine's before and after pics in bra and panties and I realized that we have the same loose skin in the same spots. I imagine all of us post ops do. Thank God I am not alone in this journey and that I have people who are willing to share with me their experience so I don't feel like such a freak.

Bike Ride

I finally got DJ to put air in my bike tires and I picked up his bike from his parents. Then we went out and bought a child bike seat (after lots of research on trailers and seats) and last night for the first time in say... 10 years... we went for a bike ride!!! I thought I was going to be sore and have a hard time, especially since the child seat was installed on my bike... but it was fun and I did really well!

I thought we would just drive once around the subdivision, but we drove around ours, and BOTH of the ones adjacent to ours!

So the plan now is to have dinner ready when DJ gets home from work, then go for a bike ride each night. This counts as exercise and hopefully it will help the loose skin on my legs and lower back. GO TEAM WEISS!