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Wednesday, May 14, 2008

realization

I should NOT wear sleeveless or short sleeve shirts. I should NOT wear a swimsuit or shorts. I should not wear shirts that don't come ALL the way down. These things will not change with the more weight I lose - they will get worse. The loose skin under my arms resembles wings - a few more pounds and I should be able to take flight - where should I go?

I know all of these things, but at the same time, I knew going into the surgery that I would have loose skin. And yes, there are things that can be done (with a lot of $$), but we want to have another child and I won't have any surgeries to fix things until after Austin is born *crosses her fingers*... meanwhile - I have come to the realization that I DON'T CARE! I finally don't have to hide under extra large clothes, or long pants in 90 + degree weather, or a jacket over a short sleeved shirt because I am hiding inside my clothes. I have lost 140 lbs so far and I look better than I have in 14 years - I have more energy, more ambition, more confidence and I intend to wear short sleeve shirts and a swimsuit and shorts.... I doubt I will wear a sleeveless dress though - I mean - usually a formal event, I don't want to take flight during someone's wedding nuptials.

I was able to see a surgery buddy of mine's before and after pics in bra and panties and I realized that we have the same loose skin in the same spots. I imagine all of us post ops do. Thank God I am not alone in this journey and that I have people who are willing to share with me their experience so I don't feel like such a freak.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Honey I bet you are beautiful extra skin and all. I know I for one am not ashamed of my extra skin, I worked hard for it..lol. If people dont like my wings then dont look. I too want more kids and wont do anything drastic until I am done. I am still not sure I will fix my arms or legs but I will do my tummy and boobs when I am finished making babies. I think we are our own worst critics when it comes to the extra skin. We have worked hard to be where we are so be proud of all you have accomplished in this short time. BTW we need a new pic :)

Pam said...

Tina,
You truly look wonderful. I know you are self conscious of the extra skin under your arms, and inside your thighs, but it really does not look as bad as you think it does. Please don't use that as a reason not to wear short sleeve shirts and shorts. You are beautiful and have done so well. Everyone agrees you look great!