My dr. said that because of my age, my skin should bounce back after a dramatic weight loss. I am here to tell you - it just isn't so! There are two places: my upper arms (under side) and my inner thighs. You'd think that these two places would be discreet and that no one other than my husband will see it. WRONG! What about short sleeves? Each day I wear scrubs (the kind nurses wear) for my daycare attire and each day when I raise my arms to do whatever (singing and dancing, SOO big, TA-DA!, etc...) I feel my underarm wings flapping around. Also, the stretch marks have gotten darker so that it appears like I have a huge cluster of blackheads!! Its absolutely disgusting. My inner thighs are terrible! I was running the other day and I felt areas jiggling that haven't jiggled and SHOULDN'T be jiggling! It was gross and strange. So how do I fix it?
EXERCISE! I need to desperately start an official, REAL routine! But how? Daycare runs 6:30 - 5:30 PM, then I have to clean-up, do dishes, make dinner, clean-up, do dishes, spend time with DJ and Shelby, do paperwork, do homework, go grocery shopping, work on menus, check and send emails, work on my licensing, etc... I usually go to bed around 10 PM or so completely exhausted to turn around and do it all again the next day. My to do list gets longer and longer and it feels like I am running out of time. I wanted to start home daycare so that I can spend more quality time with my daughter and ensure she is getting the best care possible - but am I really achieving what I set out to do? Then - to try to fit exercise into it all? Where? Yes - I have more energy than I have had in years and I get a lot of exercise running around after toddlers and infants all day and cleaning and doing and going all day - but its not steady, formal, weight lifting, toning type exercise. *sigh* I wonder how expensive it is to clone myself?
Pool season is coming and although I am looking forward to buyng a much smaller swimsuit, I know that it will still have to be a swimdress to cover what I can of the nasty areas. And who do I really want to see me that way? I want to take Shelby to a waterpark and go down slides and tubing and such... but who am I kidding? I am not exposing all that!
Seems to me I should be happy that I've lost so much weight and be proud of my new healthier body, instead of ashamed and embarrassed. But saying it and feeling it are very different things.
Surgery is an option - but my Dr. says to wait until after we have our second child... why spend time and money to fix what is going to get misplaced again anyways? And I have to give my body a chance to settle in at the weight its going to stay at. Not to mention, surgery is expensive!
For now, I will try to take walks to the parks instead of drive, I will try to park further away instead of in handicap, and I will try to do strength training with my bands when I can. But if anyone out there has any clue as to how to fit a square peg into a round hole (referring to all the things I have to do a day with the short time given to do it), I certainly would appreciate it.
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what about free weights during their nap time? you could clean with the right arm, lift the left and then visa versa. just a thought? even during the time that you spend with the family maybe you could do that or that thigh thing that Suzanne Somers used to promote. I do have one that I don't use if you're interested..........
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