12 days post op

Today went by very fast for me.

Shelby slept a tad later which afforded me time to sleep a bit later. I was on Shelby duty all day by myself for the first time post op. I was quite worried about it, but too proud to tell anyone my feelings. We played, had breakfast, played, watched Sesame Street and Barney. She had a bottle and decided it was time for a nap.

11:30 AM- 1:45 PM she napped. Whereas I checked email, worked on childcare situation, etc... I was about to get up and grab a shower when the door bell rang. I was in no condition to answer the door, so I ignored it but went to see who it was. Imagine my surprise when I found out Gina, our sitter we just fired, was at the door. I didn't answer and she rang again. 5 times she rang the door, all the while, Bailey is barking and I am hiding trying to get Bailey to be quiet so she doesn't wake the baby. She called on the phone, she called my cell. What the heck?

She finally left and I hopped in the shower. I was a bit freaked out though. I mean, I fired her because she put my daughter in an unsafe situation, lied repeatedly to me, and broke all of our house rules. Granted I was nice about it, but it doesn't mean I want to be your friend!?! Needless to say, I locked the door to the bathroom and kept one eye open while I showered.

After I showered, I made a few calls and then called Gina. She tells me she has something for me and can she bring it over now. Umm... no! I am home from work trying to recouperate with a new lifestyle and heal, all the while I am caring for Shelby because of the predicament she put me in and she wants to come over for a visit? I was in no mood. I told her so. I told her I have very little energy and I expended it on my shower. But that wasn't good enough. She wants to come tomorrow. I told her we had plans. She asks about Wednesday. UGH! What does she want? I asked her what it was, she said it was a surprise. So I said OK to Wednesday. But DJ doesnt like the idea of her coming over when no one is home but me, so he is having me change it. Unbelievable!!

Should I be worried? Wisconsin has very strict stalker laws. Maybe I should just let the police know? Oh she also came over on Sunday. DJ and Mom were watching shelby and relaxing, I was taking a nap. Gina came over and she said she wanted to see what DVDs we had so she could make a list of what movies she wanted to rent from NetFlicks! What??? Is she mental? Then she asked if she could talk to me and DJ told her I was sleeping. He told her to Call me tomorrow. What a basket case. Who does this after they have been fired? I am worried that when I find a replacement, she will come over and bother the replacement. What if she bullies her way into our home and tries to do something or take Shelby? Man - its like a lifetime movie network deal and its got me kinda freaked out.

So I am not losing any more weight. I have been at 40 since Saturday I think. Nothing has happened. I dont understand. The weight loss stall is suppose to come much later, and not at all if you are exercising. So whats the deal? I mean, I am on a liquid diet. Unless I am blending dairy queen and burger king in my sleep, I should be losing weight. I am intaking far less than 500 calories a day!

I took Shelby out front today to play with her car. She basically walked on the sidewalk in front of our house and both neighbors houses. Both came out to see her while we walked. I didn't realize how humid it was outside, we both were dressed for winter because of how cold our house is and we both were soaked 20 minutes later when we went in. But she seemed to enjoy herself and I got a bit of walking in like I should. Tomorrow, I might try to walk her around the block in her stroller.

Today, I got in my liquid, but didnt get in my protein. This is because I never made myself any protein shakes. I am looking for other products to boost my protein intake and have a list of places to call for free samples. But somehow I need to focus on now and get that 60 grams in EACH day. Sometimes I think I am so weak.